27 1 / 2012
rant.
so im currently feeling like shit, im really considering cutting myself becuase im very unhappy and quite upset, i dont care if people are telling me im attention seeking by saying i cut myself, i can say what i like who are they to judge, but it doesnt matter what they say, ill still cut , ill still be depressed and ill still be me, but its not like that matters anyway, everyone seems to be in on some big plan to make me end up killing myself because even if things start to look up thats for about 30m seconds, im sick of being lonely, im sick of everything and everyone, im so over being second best to everyone, if im such a fucking joke to you all why not just say so then fuck off, everyone thinks its funny to make it worse, well its not, ive wasted more blood on you pathetic people then myself, ive wanted to cut this life short many many times, eventually the time runs out, I’d love to watch all of you atend my funeral, seeing as it would be very few , people always say quality not quantity, but what if the quality is just as little as the quantity, then what?, sometimes i dont understand why i bother so much, i sit here feeling like shit and whos here to make me feel better, no one all i get is nothing, you know you have like 500 friends on facebook and like hundreds of followers on tumblr but it doesnt amtter becuase none of them give a fuck anyway, how many of them help you and talk to you and see how you are, ask how your day went, but it doesnt matter if i say this because it still wont happen no matter what i do or say its so stupid why i even care i bearley understand it, i might be lucky if i get a 3 minute conversation on facebook, and id be happy if i ever got a message on tumblr, im so sick of all of you, i give and give and help and help you all and wheres my thanks, nothing, not a thank you, not even a friend.
